As you know if you have read my last blog, I have decided to move back to France definitively. After almost 7 years in Scotland, I realised that it was time for me to go home. France is where I belong.
Life has been difficult in Scotland, it has not been what I expected. Finding a permanent job has been a real struggle. I have met a lot of people, but no real friends. No friends who were there for me when I needed them. Not one.
I am ready to meet the right people for me, the people who will genuinely care about me and be there in difficult times. People who will accept me for who I am, accept my points of view even if they disagree with them, and with whom I will be able to be truly myself without being judged or laughed at.
Let's talk about why I came to Scotland in the first place. Yes, I had been here before, yes I think Scotland is a beautiful and magical country. But that is not why I came here. I didn't come here for work, either. I came to Scotland, because I felt deep down I needed to. I felt in my heart that it was very important for me to be in Scotland.
I understood why I had this feeling at the end of 2019. The reason I had to be in Scotland, is because I needed to meet someone "in 3D". Someone I've known since the beginning of life. Our souls are linked, and we are constantly in contact in the spiritual world (5D). He even came to some of my dreams about 20 years ago. We needed to meet for real in this life, and it was meant to happen in Scotland. That meeting, started a long healing process for both of us, a healing that will last until the rest of our life.
Now it is time for me to continue my adventure in my home country, and to let Scotland and whatever happened there, behind me. No, I am no longer in contact with the person I talked about previously, and it is OK. If we are meant to see each other again one day, I know it will happen when it is the best time for both of us.
During my time in Scotland, I have learned to put myself first. To stop being a people pleaser who says yes to everything just to make other people happy. I am now my priority and will only do what is best for me. My wellbeing is more important than anything or everyone else. I have understood how my emotions, linked to my childhood traumas, were controlling me and how I was reacting because of it. I apologise to anyone I may have hurt because of my emotions. I didn't know or understood.
I have a few more months left in Scotland, I am currently looking for a job in France. I have decided that I will leave by April at the latest. So we can say, it's going to happen between now and April, whenever I find a job in France. I am ready to go on a new adventure!
Edit 05/12: I am moving back to France at the end of February 2025.
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